One thing I hear about in lots of diabetes blogs from parents is 'If I could take the diabetes away and give it to myself, I would' and similar sentiments. I know that I would feel the same way in many ways. But it is such a cop-out. Up there with a husband offering to get pregnant instead of the wife. I might as well say 'If only I could fly to Mars, find an ancient civilization with a cure, and come back', I would or some other ridiculous scenario. The reality is that my kid is alone in this. I can not do anything to cure him. No matter what I say, when everyone in the family gets together and eats, he is the one who has to have a shot first, and count the carbs, not anyone else.
But let's say I am sincere in my offer. Sure it is impossible, but there are other sacrifices I could do right? Right???
This morning when he awoke he said his stomach hurt. I checked his blood sugar and, although high, we have been coming down. When I had the call with the endocrinologist, I said he was having a pain in his stomach. The doctor said that unless he threw up he should be okay, just watch him. So that is what my wife and I did. I went off to work, she worked from home, and we complained about how this was making our lives difficult.
Tomorrow, I told him, he is going back to school. I am not going to let him miss more school then he absolutely has to. It is too hard on our family finances for me to miss work, and the chaos from my wife's career is also too much to bear. So we are going to force him back to school tomorrow, unless he throws up.
Nice parents eh?
Sure, we talk a good game about loving him and sharing the disease with him, but when it matters he is still alone.
Saying that I would take the disease away from him is actually the VERY least I could have possible done
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