After spending the last 6 weeks obsessing over my son's health, it occured to me that I have completely fallen off the wagon for myself. I am not blaming him, it is rather that his diabetes turned into another excuse not to excercise, watch my blood pressure, and generally deal with my own health.
I do have high blood sugar. It was high last year and I went on some medications and spend much of the fall and into January doing a moderate workout program that was having some effect. My blood pressure had dropped to around 145 over 90, still high, but it had tracked down significantly over a year ago.
So last night, I am lying in bed thinking... I feel like crap. It suddenly occurred to me, this was the way I was feeling last year. I have been mostly taking my medication, but not reliably, probably forgetting it nearly half the time. I have not been working, out. And I have been, to say the least, rather stressed out.
My blood pressure last night was around 170 over 105. Wow, stage two hypertension.
I am very disappointed with myself. I can't believe that I was so selfish to let myself go like that. My son having diabetes is no excuse to let myself die, or worse, have a stroke or a heart attack by being lazy.
So, my new resolution, take care of myself again. I renewed my medication prescriptions, and I will work out tonight, and at least 3 times a week from now on. I will do it for him, if not for myself.
